jealousy is just your unmet desires in disguise.

who or what are you jealous of? and what does it say about your subconscious desires?

paris is right tbh.

if you said you’ve never been jealous, i know not to trust you. especially if you have any water or earth sign placements (because have you ever met a scorpio or virgo??).

everyone has experienced jealousy or envy before, whether it’s for that healthy relationship you crave, a job you wish you had, an apartment in the city you dream about, or the new Miu Miu bag your friend just bought that you’ve had saved in your cart for 92 days (oddly specific-but iykyk).

in my opinion, jealousy gets a really bad rap for such a normal and human emotion. as a society, we've sensationalized and accepted the emotions of sadness, anger, ennui, and longing- but yet when jealousy walks into the room everyone acts like she’s the only crazy one.

in the wheel of emotions, jealousy falls under the category of anger: and it can be seen as a mix of emotions like anger, sadness, and fear, but it also has ties to other feelings like resentment and inadequacy. it's a layered and complex emotional response to the perceived threat of not obtaining affection, attention, status or a material possession.

the emotional wheel by Robert Plutchik (revised).

but what if jealousy was actually trying to teach us something? jealousy more than a green-eyed monster or an ugly emotion. sometimes jealousy can act as a mirror, revealing our deepest, unexpressed desires. by leaning into what these emotions are telling us instead of ignoring them, we can practice deeper emotional intelligence and self-awareness. when we move past the initial discomfort or "muck" of jealousy, it can guide us toward understanding what we truly want and deserve in life.

almost every time i’ve admitted i was jealous of someone or something, it unlocked a hidden desire that i felt subconsciously unworthy or undeserving of, despite proof that i was just as worthy. through doing years and years of shadow work, i have confronted the unpleasant and overlooked parts of my subconscious psyche and limiting beliefs. most recently, it was the realization that i deeply desire to create a career path for myself that could embody my best skills, expertise and passions as a multifaceted human: a path that feels both expansive and aligned, where I can show up fully as myself without compromising my values, financial stability, my mental health, or creativity. a role that allows me to follow my curiosity, and includes all my various interests: mental health and wellness, writing and public speaking, responsible technology and innovation, social media and pop culture, community care and connection, science and health, and art.

i haven’t seen an exact replica of this lifestyle or career path in anyone i know closely, but i do know that reality exists somewhere, i just need to continue taking inspired action towards it. in this space, jealousy serves as a form of delayed gratification as i witness glimpses of what’s possible through others, reminding me that if i can recognize it, i can also create it. instead of seeing jealousy as a barrier, i’m learning to view it as a compass—pointing me toward the life i’m meant to build, one intentional step at a time.

(she was prob talking about Big 🙄)